how the heart grows wicked

okay i feel a lot better now. things that shouldn't be in my system are in it. ok i just made myself sound like a total druggie. i'm not! promise! :) so yea i wonder whether everyone goes through the same feelings like i do, that whole updownroundandround emotional roller coaster that i do, or am i supposed to trust those rom-com superficial movies that everyone's always happy in life, relationships, friendships and the lot? seriously. somebody tell me already.