but you're yesterday's child to me

pancakes, maple syrup, coffee and a little jazz thrown in makes a very very relaxing and awesome Wednesday morning. :) but then the stack of biochem notes i have to study and memorize makes for a not so perfect wednesday afternoon. i have 7days till my last exam and then i'm done wtih 2nd year of MedSchool. CAN YOU IMAGINE? time flies by so fast. in 3 months, i will be in 3rd year and 2 months away from being 19. i feel old yet incredibly young at the same time. perhaps it's because i hang out with people slightly and much older than i am. good thing or bad? i can't decide because on one hand, i've been hanging out with people older than i am since primary school when i decided to skip a grade (people one year older do count as being older right?!) so i probably don't really feel like they're older than i am. i must admit, i sometimes forget my age. :( but then sometimes, i wonder whether i missed out on doing all the stupid stuff people do when they're young because i matured too fast for my own good. oh wait. it just dawned upon me that whatever stupid things people do when they're 17, i did too! just that i was 16 when i did it. so YAY! no youth lost. except being here in Russia, i wonder whether i'm wasting my youth away. 6 years of med school and whatnot. when i graduate i'll be 23. is that old? most of the older folks will probably tell me that being a doctor at 23, the world is my oyster. i really hope i'm not completely drained of energy or hope and that i'm not completely cynical or jaded yet. coz i think that's pretty sad, don't you think? being jaded at 23 will probably suck.

on a happier note, 4 WEEKS BEFORE I HEAD BACK HOME TO HUMID WEATHER AND FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND FOOD. ZOMG food!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D will definitely be smiling for days after exam. :) ok. ciao.